I Wonder If

I wonder if she remembers me

Or if I’m just a memory,

I wonder if she thinks of us

Or if she finds it useless,

I wonder how things would be

If she had never broke the spell,

I wonder how she is

And if I’m still a love of her.

I think about her everyday

And wonder if she’s okay,

I think about how happy we were

And the memories make the tears stir,

I think about the plans we made

While we were laying in the shade.

I think about all we said

And the lives we lead,

To not know

Where to go,

To not know where to find

A place where she may hide,

To not be able to see her face

Puts my heart so out of place,

To not know when she’s near

Is my greatest fear.

There’s so much in my head

That I wish I’d said,

There’s so many missed sayings

For my unanswered wishes,

There’s only so many ways

For me to make it through the days.

There’s so little light

In my heart tonight.

What would I say

If given a day,

What would happen

If I could have her,

What joy it would bring

To hear her sing,

What would I feel

If she were here for real,

She misses me each day

That she is away,

She misses me looking out for her

The way it used to be.

I miss her love

That protected me like a glove,

I miss her

So much it’s made my heart dim.

I wonder if she still cares

That’s a question that tears,

I wonder what she’s like

If she’d tell me to take a hike,

I wonder if she fears

That I don’t hold her dear,

But most of all

I wonder if she still loves me,

Or if I’m just a memory

Of what used to be.

That's probably a fact.